After Review....

12.2.21

I will admit. I wasn't going to post this today. It feels a bit narcissistic, constantly writing about myself.  My apologies for that. At the same time, my original impetus for writing was to make sure that I recorded the memories for me and for my kids/family to have one day...

Yesterday, I was privileged to drive 2/3 of the boys to school - I enjoy those moments even more these days and I have learned to cherish even the 'quiet' times when they are still waking up. If you're a parent - you know how those teens & preteens need their wake up time! Ami is particularly sensitive to what is going on these days. He made sure to tell me that he hoped my chemo went well and that I felt as good as possible. He also got himself a ride to and from his pre-tournament weekend warm-up game at Niles North. Knowing that I wasn't going to make it to St. Louis this weekend to watch him, I really wanted to make it to the game, but Ami assured me that it was okay if I was not up to it. They really do grow up....eventually.

From drop off, I drove right to Glenbrook Hospital for the first treatment. I sat in the parking lot for 5 to 10 minutes, just gathering my thoughts. I happen to know a friend's wife who was also starting Chemo at the same time, and I said a prayer for both of us. I hope to one day be able to celebrate with her!

I knew right away that Brandi and I made the right choice going with Northshore. Everyone was incredibly welcoming, kind, and informative. My doctor enthusiastically shook my hand and shared my desire to get the fight going! I showed him the #GratefulFighters sweatshirt and, without hesitation, he asked me to let him know as soon as they were available. The doc, each nurse, the pharmacist, the nutritionist, and a social worker, each spent as much time as I needed to explain things step by step and to answer all of my questions. I know I won't see all of those staff members once this is regular, but it made me extremely comfortable.

Quick details for those that want to know. My blood work all checked out and so I was cleared for Chemo. The Chemo starts with anti-nausea meds and steroids for 30 minutes. Once that is done, I wait for 30 minutes for those meds to settle in my system. Apparently, the steroids end up bolstering my energy and since they last through the 2 days of the pump, the first two days aren't as 'tiring'. The possibility is that once the pump is out tomorrow, I will 'crash' for a bit.

Next, I spent 2 hours hooked up to the Oxaliplatin Chemo drug that breaks the DNA of cancer cells and prevents growth of new ones. When that is done, the pump of Flourouracil is hooked up to my portal. This is another cancer drug. The pump is about the size of small water balloon. They tape the line to my chest so it doesn't get tugged out, put the pump in a fanny pack, and sent me on my way.

There are a bunch of potential side effects to all of these drugs. I won't go through them all, but I am keeping notes (I'm sure you're not surprised). The relevant one right now is cold sensitivity. The nurses made a big deal of suggesting I have gloves handy because even the cold steering wheel in the car may cause pain. Yesterday, it was not really cold enough to bother me, but I did pick up a few pairs of those little knit gloves at Walgreens on the way home. I put one by the fridge and one in my jacket pocket.

They also warn that the cold sensitivity can occur orally. I was really hungry when I got home and I grabbed some pretzels and hummus. I didn't consider Hummus to be a cold food, but let me tell you - they were not lying. One bite of the hummus and I had shooting pain in my mouth for about a minute. Needless to say, I won't make that mistake again. Later on, I chose a soft bagel to eat. Apparently, the first bite of food can cause jaw pain as well. That has happened a few times over the past day. Subsequent bites are fine...but ouch, that first bite is so painful at the joint of my jaw. But that's it. And if those are the only things that happen, I figure that's a small price to pay for beating this thing. A little mouth pain is NOT going to deter me from my battle. I have too many memories to make with my brilliant wife, amazing kids, family, and friends.

Sleeping with my BiPAP and the pump wires was a bit tricky. But according to my Fitbit, I slept about 6.5 hours. Not awful! And I woke today feeling pretty good. All in all, not a bad first day!

Maybe none of the above is that narcissistic as it's just informative...but here's the part that is most important to me. As you all know, I love watching my sons engage in the activities they love. Right now, Nadav is playing basketball for his school team and will start winter soccer soon. I'm excited to see him play basketball now that his broken finger is healed.

Ami, as I mentioned above, is back playing soccer with his awesome FC Mirage club and they have a tourney in St. Louis Saturday/Sunday. Since I can't go to St. Lou, my goal yesterday was to be well enough to drive to Niles North (about 25 minutes away), to watch Ami's game. Well, I made it there. Ami has grown immensely as a player in the last 2 years. He's stronger and faster, and he's a pleasure to watch when he's focused. I am so proud of him in so many ways, and his play on the pitch is no exception.

Anyhow, during the game, I was having some daydreaming/flashbacks to when I was in high school. Niles North was in our conference and in the Fall of 1987, I played at Niles North and scored a goal there. I imagined how cool it would be to see my son score a goal on the same field. Amazingly, later in the first half, that dream came true. It was a bit surreal because sometimes I forget how fast Ami has become (when healthy). But there he was, flying in from the wing, taking a pass, and powering it past the goalie. I'm not afraid to admit that it brought a tear to my eye. I love seeing my kids find success in doing what they love. I am proud of each and every one of them.

The game ended 1-0.

Game winner for Ami.
Game winner for my buddy, (You know who you are), who had his colonoscopy with a positive outcome!
Game 1 winner for Me vs. Cancer - I'm doing the Chemo and I've got this.

#GetScreened
#EarlyDetectionSavesLives
#GratefulFighters


**The goal linked here was from a GBN game this fall. Last night was a similar play but instead of passing, Ami took the ball more toward the goal and shot.

And there's the narcissism ;) Thanks for indulging my kid brag.